honestly i was scared as shit. And i was young and stupid enough to think that was something i had to do to help my dad. I didnt find out till i was older that it was basically to fund his drug habbit. I thought it was to pay the rent cuz thats what dad told me and my dad didnt lie to me up to that point. My parents had split up and i was stupid and thought it was normal. I knew it felt wrong, but at the same time i thought that was why kids moved away.