Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Lost....

So my doc put me on meds for allergies depression. Funny, i didnt think i was depressed. But thats the way of life i guess. So i took my first one this afternoon at 1, like im supposed to every day now, right after lunch so it has enough time to leave my system so i can not have fucked up dreams but stays in my system enough i can sleep. Since i took it, i felt lost. IDK, its odd.

I was supposed to do laundry, and i was gonna have a trick over to plow hole, but i just didnt. The pills are making me more depressed than i was i guess. Idk... maybe its a combo of this and the fact that the guy i like and want to hang with more than anything is at folsom, and i cant go cuz my sister picked this of all weekends to come out and celebrate her graduating from grad school.

I dont know, maybe its everything. Work is sucking, life is generally not the greatest right now, but at the same time i got so much to be happy about im kicking myself for feeling like shit. I just dont know...

3 comments:

PDQ said...

Keep your doctor in the loop about how the pills are affecting you. Give your body some time to get used to them, for sure. But if a week's gone by and if things still aren't right - call him and let him know.

PDQ said...

Wait a sec......I just noticed that you indicated you don't think you're depressed. Maybe you need to be asking the doctor to justify his diagnosis. Take control of your medical care. It's your life and your body. Don't ever just accept what the doctor says, because doctors are human and can make mistakes just like the rest of us.

Jnk Nswt said...

When you feel like shit even though you have lots to be happy about, that's called depression. Actually you can be depressed in other circumstances too, but it's pretty textbook when you're bummed "for no reason."

Besides, you've had some big stressors lately. This drug may not be the right one for you, but some treatment sure seems to be indicated.