Seeing others

So I know its been a while, how are all yall. I know it sucked, but I'm glad I took a break, gave me time to evaluate what's important in my life. I'm most glad to say that I found something out about myself, something that no longer is the case with me.
I used to see myself as others saw me. If someone called me a submissive little whore, well that must be what I was. Something has changed recently, be it working again or my ongoing mentoring by an amazing Sir, I've grown some balls.
I was at an event not long ago, and a creeper aka creepy old guy decided to start hitting on me. I stayed quiet, kept talking to my friends till he pinched my nipple. I whispered in his ear as if I was going to be sweet, and told him if he did it again his balls would be my breakfast. It feels good to finally not have the compulsion to submit to everyone

You know, I've always liked the picture at the top of your blog - your balls look incredibly hot. And I'm not usually that into them...but that pic just makes me want to suck on them and go up and down the shaft.

Awesome bro.... and thanks :D

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midterms and hangovers

So as of this all of my midterms are officially over. My brain has been worked over like my nipples at BCF. And I know I've been off the grid mostly cuz I haven't been hone much over the last few weeks. However even with me not being home I've mostly just been hanging out not hooking up. It's actually been real nice, and its helping me find my place in all this shit.

So ive been going to bullet fairly regular, just to see my Sir mostly. And last week they had a pretty epic event, oil wrestling. So i was saying hi to some of the brothers, when one of the higher ups in the LALC comes in, and starts playin with my nipples. For a good hour and a half he plays with my nips, my balls and my cock. I was on fucking cloud nine. Oddest part, i never got to shoot my load till i got home...

are you a hustler?

I love how doctors ask me this like its not an insult. Also, midterm are over so ill be back at in a few days... alcohol is required.this weekend though

Anchor Chain

For about the last month, ive been adrift emotionally. Not sure where i fit anymore. Not sure where i fit in life, what my life is going to be, why and where i am where i am.

This has not stopped yet, but it seems i did find an anchor chain. I have a complicated relationship with a guy who unfortuately lives far away from me, and im happy when i get a text from him. he gives me sweaty rank jocks to wear and im happy. Everything in my life is going to shit it seems, except that, so im focusing on the thing that makes me happy.

Remember May 24th? (i hate to say i told you so....)

On May 24th i wrote a post about how GLADD was running a campaign targeted at highschool kids to stop using gay as a term to stay stupid. I pointed out that bullying is a bigger problem, and that GLADD needs to stand up and fight for these kids who are getting bullied, and how i used to fight back against those that bullied me.

Well GLADD didnt take my advice, they kept running the adds and when highschool started i noticed something with my littles. More of the gay kids were getting beat up than last year. ALOT more. I dont know if its correlation or causation, but its very odd that the gay establishment starts a campaign and now we have 3 dead gay kids.

But there is hope my friends. There is a project that i can get behind, its not done by the gay establishment, its honest and for the first time, its hopeful. I could have used someone telling me it gets better when i was in highschool.

So go here and submit a video, leave a comment and help get the word out on this project that actually will help make a difference.

Now i want to ask something of my gay friends and fellow bloggers who are jumping to hyperbole and dramatization of these events. Gays are not second class citizens. Bullying is not a new phenomenon neither are sucides in teens or young adults. I lost friends in highschool to suicide and hell, almost commited it a few times myself. Unfortunately, all this raising awareness might seem great and even feel good. But i can tell you right now, without a shadow of a doubt more kids are going to get bullied because this raising awareness pisses off parents, the kids see pissed off parents and replicate behaviors and are beating up fags in the hallways at school. Then i get calls from DFS case workers and have to pick kids up from school.

For once, how bout gay people go to highschools and SEE what happens to gay kids. maybe then, they would know what they need. They dont need an outreach program, a fundraiser, a plea on Ellen, they need a hug. And i know there are enough angry gays out there who can give some gay highschoolers some hugs.

the with a lil luck.....

we might just get stuck.

Well, i did get stuck. In sand, While driving down a dirt road trying to get as far from civilization as possible.And i suceedded, it took the tow company an hour to get out to me and winch me out. In that hour, i had some time to think. And i stared at the stars. And i found a bit of my sanity, a bit of my health, a bit of my happiness and a bit of my selfworth out there.